Tomorrow we go back to the hospital for the endo appointment they scheduled for 6 weeks following the last.
I still havent gotten over the last endo appointment. (see previous post). The thought of it makes me cry and Im completely anxious. Been grinding my teeth and having panic attacks. I really dont think I can handle it. I begged my husband to go with Reuben on his own because I simply cannot face it without a nervous breakdown and he declined. Why cant a man just respond to a woman who is obviously distressed and in need of his help? I couldnt ask him for his help the way I need and want it any more clearly. Im really disappointed. He even takes a day off work for the appointments, I dont see the problem and this distresses me even more. I figure if he loved me he would step up. I figure if he was really listening to me, and knowing what was going on with me, he would. If he wanted a wife who felt validated, secure and calm. He would. I feel completely alone this morning.
Today I have a dr's appointment. Im going to ask the dr about taking anti-depressents. Being constantly tired, overwhelmed, angry, disappointed, struggling.
Too much for one mumma.