Saturday, March 26, 2011
From baby to toddler, issues issues
Theres a few reasons for flailing around in this quagmire. (Do you like that one?) I doubt myself and if I even know what Im doing anymore. Ive calculated and recalculated his I:C and his correction bolus. Maybe Im overthinking it all but I feel like Ive lost any instinct I had because its all so changeable right now.
The last 6 months R has technically moved from baby hood into toddler hood. Looking through his numbers I was surprised to see I had GREAT management skills of his diabetes after his honeymoon period ended and BEFORE he began to walk.
T h e n c a m e t h e r u n n i n g . . . .
I dont feel like Ive been able to take a breath. His insulin needs are changing rapidly - from day to day - in fact from meal to meal. His appetite is changing, when I could rely on him to eat yogurt, apples, fruit toast.... now we are going through some food refusal. Food play. He also is seeing what his big brother and sister are eating and on occassion begs for that. (Another issue entirely and a battle Im losing. Im substituting low GI and healthier options, but my carnivorous husband says eating wild rice is like eating branches. Go figure).
So Im going through alot of processes all at once and Im pretty overwhelmed. I wish it was easy, like giving an aspirin, or applying a bandaid.
Reuben is very active, but it is variable day to day. Some times this causes afternoon and overnight hypos (its always a delayed reaction to very active days).
Reuben gets bursts of excitement like when we go to music class. This tends to spike his BGL, which I dont treat because it falls later on its own.
We are dealing with alot of food issues, learning to prepare healthy meals, low GI, when to space them , quantities, carb counts of and various other issues like a fussy family of 5. Even when his plate looks perfect, he will eat the chicken off the plate then refuse to eat anything carbohydrate...(GOOD LORD!). Hypo city...
Reubs likes to graze on foods when Im not looking (omg I need to lock the fridge, Ive found him in the lounge room, with raw corn cobs hes pinched, taken them out of the husks, surrounded by the corn silks and munching happily.) Reuben has a variable almost erratic appetite. Why> whynot. Hes 18months old now. Hes headstrong and determined. Reuben will breastfeed some nights all night long and not others. Because of his tiny tummy he can easily fill up on water (which I wont restrict because its very important for all of us). Reuben is toilet training and tends to go potty (poo poos) only once a day now, so that means his belly is full and at meal times just doesnt WANT to eat.
Reuben is getting a stack of big grinding chompers in the back of his jaw and it really bugs him. This causes food probs, but also HI (pwd and d-mamas know what I mean, that is not a typo) blood sugars. Then theres the issue with the expensive ketone strips...
Reuben sometimes daytime sleeps, sometimes not.
Id be surprised if anyone read this far, its really a rant and a whinge. I need that alot these days!
I feel like Im going to fall in a heap if his Hba1c is cruddy at the next endocrinologist appointment.