Sickness sucks

My baby is in hospital.  I feel like a bit of a failure like I just couldnt do it - maybe I shouldve brushed up on my mini glucagon dosing or whatever and I just gave up.   Then on the other hand I tell myself hes so little, this is new terrain, we did the right thing.   He was dehydrated. Unable to eat. It was like torturing him trying to syringe tiny amounts of panadol and lucozade in his mouth.    Then came the breast refusal.   Yup something is r e a l l y wrong when he wont even take boobie milk!   Even if we couldve treated the lows, he had ketones we couldnt flush and an underlying illness.

After days of this gastro virus and vomitting and refusal to eat, we called an ambulance in the middle of the night to transport Danger Dad and my baby to the kids hospital.  Its heart breaking watching your small child being strapped onto a stretcher perched on DD's lap, drive off to the hospital.     DD said Reubens eyes told the story he KNEW about the hospital.  He knew what was coming.   But theres the decision, pain at the hospital or repeated dangerous hypos with ketones at home :( :( :(    If only I could take it all away for him.

Hes been there 2 days now and the verdict is he wont eat because of gastro, and cant swallow from sore tonsils and mouth ulcers (?) Im not a doctor...   He cant come home until hes taking all his food by mouth again so they can gradually decrease the sugar in his drip.   Hes getting antibiotics and panadol, and much needed fluids.   I think we made the right choice.    I do however know the struggle hes going through being tied to the machine and how awful cannulas , on top of the symptoms of illness:(

Im trying to keep things in order on the home front, my daughter vomitted on the couch, in the car, in my study....   Shes got her trusty spew bowl handy again today just in case. But her temps seem down and she was great for my sister yesterday.

I got the dreaded call from school.   My only healthy child seemed to have discomfort, perhaps a bladder infection?  Im definately going to fall in a heap at this rate.   My wonderful sister (thankyou thankyou) rang around, got him an appointment and took him to the dr, who advised hes fighting some viral thing...another day off school for him.   Josephine stopped vomitting and has kept food down, but now shes snotty and coughing and just randomly stacking it - you know when walking seems too much effort?

SIGH
I thought that my first night at home without Reuben since diagnosis I may get a sleep, but I was up tending to the other kids, playing musical beds (no, not the fun version with cheery music!) mine included high temps, vomitting, crying and lots of cuddles!   

So this is my 'omg sickness sucks' post, or 'omg diabetes and sickness that sucks do not mix' post. Or 'champagne is ok when used for medicinal purposes when sickness that sucks is rampant in your house' post.

Maybe when everyones better I'll be able to look on the bright side.    Right now its just one foot in front of the other until we take this sickness down!  (haha excuse the ufc joke, my husbands a huge fan!)

Im having Mum make the 4 hr drive back down here to help out (Thank God).